If we only have a way to make them all fall faster everyday.
Finally. After what seemed like a never-ending week, the weekend has arrived RAWR! *Cheers & applause* Now where do I begin? This week has been crazy, with so many new skills to acquire and so many old tricks to recall, not to mention the ridiculous amount of assignments and exercises, my head might just explode if it wasn't for me fighting to hold in place(not to say I'm strong-willed or anything but, heheh).
Well I'm not gonna bore you with the details of my lectures in this post, just thought I'd share with you guys some of my feelings throughout the entire week. What? A guy's gotta exude his emotions once in a while. Right so, college definitely hit me hard as far as academics goes, especially since I haven't exactly been studious in the past 7 months. I practically attempted year 12 math without any relatively basic mathematical knowledge in mind, seeing that I have forgotten most of what I've learned in Form 4/5. Some sleepless nights and a couple of old school questions did manage to jog my memory abit, but they still didn't come back as fresh as before. And it's the same with accounts. I'm supposed to be learning the same stuff I did in high school but they all seemed so new to me minus the fact it's in English this time. Guess I'll just have to start all over, and hopefully end up further this this time.
In other news, I realised my course mates do speak! Haha. As usual, they were the ones who took the initiative to say hi first and struck up a conversation with me. I feel so much better now that the silence and tension between some of us are broken, but I also feel terrible for acting like such a loner in the first place. Honestly, I don't understand why I can't ever grow out of introversion. Maybe it's the paranoid feeling I get, the feeling that other people won't be able to understand me, that they won't accept me for who I am and what I do, because even I don't seem to get myself sometimes. Insecurity exists, that's why I'd rather keep the doors closed. As far as I remember, I've never really contribute an effort to try and gain other people's affinity or interest, and I definitely don't expect people to show me any but the fact that some people choose to do so anyway makes me feel like a winner. Those people are now the ones I can doubtlessly call my 'best friends'. Sometimes I wonder if I even deserve them.
Well there's a party going on now and I don't intend on missing out.... ON THE FOOD. It's my niece's Birthday by the way. Everyone wish her "Happy Birthday"! Till next time then.
Signing off,
lei, or pang, or wen. whatever suits.
